TWO is a sweet word

At 10:34 a.m. two years ago

I thought that...

I had loved

I had felt joy

I had cried tears

I had seen miracles

I had known random kindness

I had felt love

I had experienced true hope & faith

I had been humble

I loved my husband & family

I knew so much

My heart was so full.

And at 10:35 am this tiny angel girl

our 1 lb. 12 oz.  baby doll

came into our lives

And then, even with all the unknowns, 

I understood...

that there's no love quite like the love for your own baby fighting for every little breath--

I understood...

why I had never cried quite like that

that I'd never seen a tender mercy & true miracle quite like her

that people are mostly wonderful, kind people...

that I had never felt hope to that extent

that I had never been humbled to the core...

that I had loved my husband,

but nothing like I loved him as the father of ALL our children

that I knew nothing and everything all at once;

that my heart would just burst from the joy and the heartache,

the trials, and all the goodness, 

the daily miracles 

and prayers answered...

I understood...

that the Lord's will would prevail...

and I was prepared to let her go if it was His will.

but it wasn't her time...we needed this miracle and she needed a body.

and as time went on and the milestones were reached, 'overjoyed' wouldn't even describe my feelings...

And my heart kept growing, and growing and growing...

Our baby girl has brought so much indescribable joy to our lives.

I had no idea.

Thank you, thank you for picking me to be her Mommie...

Thank you for granting us this miracle and allowing us to raise, love, and experience this amazing little girl grow.

Happy, Happy 2nd Birthday, 

my Viviana Faith. 

Always my Baby.

 

Always my reminder that 

where hope and faith grows...

miracles do blossom.